Is this a dream or a nightmare?
I can't tell, I don't think it's quite clear
Until the story ends, life doesn't fight fair
And your peers act high and mighty in their high chairs
But I fear egos get in the way
(Your such a sinister, Tre)
I'm no minister but give me a minute to pray
Because God gives no free luck at the end of the day
I grew up fucking mental, I could take a pencil
And write out my feelings to a damn instrumental
Life was never gentle, even I hated me
Never had someone to help me up when I fell and scraped my knees
Grew up lost, didn't believe in the cross
But every fucking body treated me like a loss
Of humanity, like fuck my personality
To be treated like trash as a kid, complete insanity
Slit my wrists in elementary school
Before it was to become eventually cool
Are you kidding me? The intensity grew
I was a year away from committing Columbine on a few
My mind was a screw loose away from heaven
I was in my worst condition at the age of seven
I wanted to grab each and every one of em
And take a knife to their brains until I had chewed up bubble gum
But before that, before I moved to Tennessee Ave.
I had the best years of my life, no cares, no reason to be sad

At all. Really? Like let me paint a picture for you
I mean I would uhh
I could really just umm

Enjoy playing and breathe peacefully
Before I became a product of obesity
Fell in puppy love with my next door neighbor
We would draw for hours on construction paper
This was peace and quiet, please rewind it
Before my parents got arrested, before I reached to find it
Keep in mind that I was unaware what my parents were doing
So I'm just going off what I knew at the time, before the ruins
Don't you miss being a kid not knowing shit?
Before you found no reason to live

I was never really good at fitting in
But come on, let me be a kid again
Let me be a kid again
Beethoven's Song, let me be a kid again
Just let me be a kid again
Beethoven's Song, let me be a kid again
Let me be a kid again
Beethoven's Song, let me be a kid again
Beethoven's Song, let me be a kid again

You never know who your gonna be until you grow up
And realize you weren't shit to begin with